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Archive for September, 2008

T________T

Posted by kamekazen on September 28, 2008

So.. There was a Korean Festival going on LA this weekend… And… Cherry Filter performed and I totally missed it ’cause I didn’t know. Such depressing news. T___________T I missed out on my favorite Korean rock band.

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Things are…

Posted by kamekazen on September 22, 2008

Things are a-okay. 🙂

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On a side note…

Posted by kamekazen on September 19, 2008

Haha, on a side note, today was actually a pleasant day.

Bought a couple of things at Best Buy (yeah, went there again for like the 4th time in 4 days..), hung out with Roderick all day, ate at East Winds, had my piano performance test (I messed up a little but eh..), talked to Duc for a bit and got Boba, and played a lot of Mabinogi.

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Thinking about it all…

Posted by kamekazen on September 17, 2008

I had a dream last night that I was back at UR. It was the first dream that felt real to me in a long time and I woke up feeling kind of dazed and sad inside.

Thinking about it all.. I still don’t know if it was all worth it. A big part of me thought it’d be the right thing to go back. I had convinced myself I was miserable at the school and couldn’t wait to take things a bit easier back home. And yet, there’s not a moment that goes by that I don’t think about what could have been if I had stayed. Everywhere I go I see constant reminders of what I’m missing. Sometimes I’d be walking and I’d see someone familiar. I look back and no, it’s just a random person that looks like someone else I know. And sometimes that person reminds me of a friend I considered close back there. At 3AM I’d sit here and think about what I’d be doing if I was there again; probably watching TV, cramming last minute for a test, playing Risk late into the night, or possibly doing a astonishingly late night Walmart run with friends. Not really all that different from what I could be doing here but I somehow feel things are so different.

I thought I knew what I was doing but I don’t know anymore. I miss what could have been. I miss what should have been. I miss thinking I knew what was right. And I wish I knew which direction to go.

I miss that missing part of me.

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New laptop.

Posted by kamekazen on September 16, 2008

I bought a new laptop! Yay~!!
And unfortunately a part of the plastic around the keyboard is sticking up (and it’s not supposed to). Sighhhh… Guess I get to go exchange the laptop tomorrow and go through the cleansing process for bloatware again.
T_____T

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I might…

Posted by kamekazen on September 13, 2008

I might start working again next week. YESSSSS!! Thank Jeebus.

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Reunion plan.

Posted by kamekazen on September 11, 2008

Future reunion plan – Ly.
09/11/08

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Late at night..

Posted by kamekazen on September 11, 2008

Late at night I lay there thinking about things. Thinking about the things I’ve done, choices I’ve made… Wondering if I’ve done the right things, made the right choices. Sadly, I don’t think I can think there’s a single thing I can think of where if I ask myself “Did I do the right thing?”, I’d definitely and immediately say yes. There’s always that lingering feeling of “what if I had done things differently” lurking in the corner of my mind. It’s not that I regret all the choices I’ve made in life but I always feel uncertainty. Did I make mistakes or did I choose things alright? I’m never sure of how I feel…

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Why can’t money…

Posted by kamekazen on September 11, 2008

Why can’t money grow on trees? Sigh… My credit bill came home the other day. I’m spending wayyyy too much. Actually, it’s mostly school stuff. Fees, parking permit, books (screw you EOPS!!)… And then financial aid is being a bitch with the money disbursement.
I need my job back. T____T

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I guess..

Posted by kamekazen on September 7, 2008

I guess it’s too much to ask.

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